Facing fears, taking risks, having successes
Who would have thought my fears could 'try' to control me that much that I almost fabricated a super good excuse not to drive 16 hours south and compete at the AWDF, American Working Dog Federation National Championship against the likes of the 'Balabanov's, the Cutter and the Phillips,,,FML in a tracking world I had never seen before in my life!
But I knew I had to and I pushed myself with my heels dug in deep anxiety mode all the way down to NorCal,,,,what happened next was mind blowing!
I made new friends, met old friends, had huge successes, faced my fears and did it anyways and came out smiling even after a huge failure.
My worst nightmare with "jackie poo' came true, My main man quit on the track 50 steps or so in at the first article he looked at me like "WTF" Mom where's my ball!! That stunned look on his face saying "you tricked me" this alfalfa shit is not easy, I want my fucking ball and it's not here, you told me thats why Im tracking this shit!,,,,LOL Truthfully I prepared him wrong for this level of tracking....the beauty in this last statement is this: I LEARNED SOMETHING- by myself, without anyone telling me what to do or how to fix something; I made a huge mistake and I learned from it. There is no school better in life than the school of 'HardKnocks" where we live and learn.....secondly: the learning comes from facing your fear, making a mistake, feeling humbled, and 'LEARNING'.
I also learned that in a healthy competitive environment the competitors are KIND, COMPASSIONATE and have EMPATHY, traits I have not seen or felt in my hometown environment in a long time, actually years.
Thank you all the spectators, competitors and friends for your kindness and compassion in my time of fear and risk; you made it all worth it!!
Hell's Kitchen Schutzhund Club; you pulled it off and did a fantastic job!!
Fear, Risk, Learn, Grow, LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH